Friday, January 29, 2010

So there seems to be a new(ish) trend going around with the kids in this part of the world. Silly bandz. I have actually known a little about them because of my friend's daughter, but I always just figured the odd shaped bracelets were for girls. Well, I was WRONG.

Big monkey went to a birthday party last weekend and the goody bag was simply a container of these things. He picked the zoo animal pack and is so proud of them. So far he has managed to only lose one and I keep waiting for it to show up in Squeaky's diaper. Now little monkey wants some, and big monkey wants more, and I am having a hard time finding them!

I got lucky (hee hee) today and found some at the Walgreens by my office. They aren't actually called Silly Bandz though, they are Animal Bands. Can the kids tell the difference? I am really hoping my 4 and 5 year olds can't.

I am going to use these as bribes rewards. Hope they work!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

2 Weeks Notice

Today has been what I call a sad day so far. I just am feeling a bit overwhelmed and very sad. And very alone.

I think with all of the busyness going on around me, I sometimes forget that I have a broken heart. Then all of a sudden, the reality hits me and makes me sad. Sad that I don't have a partner at home. Sad that the person that promised to love me forever is gone. Sad that the vows taken in front of God and our family and friends, were broken. Sad that I am starting to wonder if maybe I was really that difficult to be with. Sad that little monkey thinks that all daddy has to do is apologize to make us a family again.
Angry days are much better. I can be funny on these days, well in my sarcastic-humor-like way!
Of course, it does not help that my nanny gave me 2 weeks notice on Monday! Yes, two weeks notice to find good quality childcare for my 10 month old and 4 year old! Absolutely freaking ridiculous. Yet another person abandoning me and the monkeys. I am having huge problems trying to figure this one out. I can not find anywhere without a 6 month or longer waiting list. Unless I want to drop the monkeys off at the ghetto daycare or the one around the corner where half the staff is out smoking at any given moment. And did I mention that I am going to end up getting a measly $860 a month in child support from my BFF (Big F***er from F***ville)?!? Sorry for the potty mouth, but I really think they should figure out some other term to call a husband once he cheats and has filed for divorce telling me that it is my fault he cheated because I should have been taking care of him at home. Yes folks, I am really considering using him as a human pinata at Squeaky's first birthday party.

Well that just did it for me, I am not sad now, just angry! This may turn out to be a good day anyway!

Monday, January 25, 2010

Hello World

Here I am, back. At least I hope so. I don't know why, but today felt like a good day to visit my blog.
I have been avoiding it completely lately, and in doing so, I have missed reading my favorites. I just felt like everyone was moving on without me and I did not want to face the fact that life goes on even with all of the sadness, aggravation, and stress going on in my life. It was a much needed break, or so I thought. But I missed it, really.

I am going to keep this one short and simple.

1. It is Mardi Gras time you all! And this year I am NOT pregnant and plan on living it up and having a fantastic ride!

2. I love my parents and they are the best, have I mentioned that before!? HA

3. Squeaky (now called Squeakquel by the little monkey) is up and moving and trying so hard to walk already!

4. The other monkeys are doing as well as can be expected. Little monkey turned 4 this month and Big monkey is a regular smarty pants like his mommy.

5. I signed up to run a FULL marathon! Yes, I must be crazy. But on April 24th in Nashville, I will be running the Country City Marathon and I really am excited. It is a much needed goal for me right now.

6. The same day (a week before Christmas) that I signed up for the marathon, I found out my husband is madly in love with someone - and it is NOT me.

So there you go. I said it. Now if I can just get myself to push publish post. It has been a rough few weeks and I know it is not going to get any better for some time. I am very blessed to have a wonderful support system. My children are very blessed to have a wonderful support system. I am going to try not to let this blog get all doom and gloom. My emotions are all over the place right now so I can't promise happy Shanna all of the time. But I know that things will get better and there isn't anything I can't do!